FOLLOWERS! PLEASE HELP MEEE
Basically I wanted to do something different as part of a birthday present for my boyfriend, and because I know all his favourite characters from games that he likes, I thought I’d draw them all and sort of, collage them together.
I need honest opinions! If it were framed and given to you as a birthday present, what would you think? I don’t have much confidence in this area and unsure of whether I should bother giving it to him as a gift? HELP!
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There’s nothing worse than a panic attack. Cold sweats, hot flushes, Sweaty palms, pulpatations, dizziness, nausea. Everyone gets them, just not everyone knows how to deal with them. Some can just let it pass and so it doesn’t last long, Others continue to worry about the outcome or the negative situation they feel they can’t handle.
Everyone has anxiety. Everyone has that part of them in them that subconciously knows when to avoid a situation, or thinks of all outcomes of a situation.
In my case, I lack confidence; not just in myself…with everything! So, automatically I am going to think the worst of any situation. I pick out all the negatives and they seem to override any positives I might find. The fear is what panics you. The reason for the fear is most of the time, unknown.
I am a worrier. and it’s taken so long for me to really think about it.
I’ve been on anti-depressants; on a gradual up-dose, I’ve tried Beta-Blocker Propanolol, amitriptyline, I’ve tried councelling, psychology, I’ve been on countless courses… In the hope that I’d find a way to beat my anxiety and get back to the way I was, stop feeling how I was feeling.
I can tell you that the drugs really don’t work, they made me worse. The most part that was helping me was the placebo effect that seems to come with them; believing that taking the tablets will help me, which only made me reliant, which is when I stopped taking them. Councelling wasn’t my thing. They only told me what they thought I wanted to hear. They only listened or sympathised, or gave basic advice. Psychology actually made me feel worse. They wanted to get to the root of the problem and talking so in-depth about my life just made me feel awful. Courses helped, in the sense I got to learn more about anxiety, but that didn’t actually help me.
It’s so hard for people to understand when they don’t know how it feels. My boyfriend for example, is very opinionated. He looks at everything in black and white, so he finds it very hard to understand when I try to explain it to him. He spoke to me like I was making it all up. He would say things like ”If you want to do something, go and do it!” - Which yes, is what we all should live by, but I always said, ”if it was that easy, dont you think I’d of done that already? Or do you think I ENJOY missing out on everything!”
.. But, It is that easy!
I actually had a very good chat with my boyfriend the other night, he was asking lots of questions, like he was interested in the subject, so obviously I was answering as well as I could. It got to the point where the conversation was quite heated, he was throwing questions at me fast and I was almost yelling out my answers. The final question was ”What do you REALLY panic about? What MAKES you panic?” and I blurted out ”Panicking! The fact I’m GOING to panic!”..
So he was like ”So, you panic because you think you’re going to panic?”
And that’s when I realised. That’s exactly it! Every room I go into, I scan over, So I know my exits (Incase I panic and need to run out). Every time I’d think about going on a plane, I’d worry because there are NO exits once you’re up there, and I’d need that (Incase I panic, and need to run out). I think about a situation and worry that I’ll randomly start panicking (and will have to run out).
Everything leads to the fact that I’m finding ways to avoid doing things. - But there really is absolutely nothing to worry about.
You know, Last week my boyfriends mum and cousin were over, I had just met them and they wanted to get a bus to another parish to visit the war tunnels. I panicked then, because I’ve avoided taking a bus since I was about 10, it had developed into a fear almost, and I just avoided ever taking them. This time I felt like I needed to go, I wanted to make an impression and had already missed out on going out for lunch with them the day before. So, I avoided the bus and met them there, because I got a friend to drive me there. Once we finished at the war tunnels, I tried calling my friend and they didn’t answer, so It only meant I had to take the bus.
We were at the bus stop and that whole time waiting, I was only thinking about the worst that could happen. Waiting is the worst, because you have time to worry.
Anyway, the bus came, and we were just paying the fare, when I turned and tried to jump off the bus before it set off. My boyfriend grabbed me and told me to stay on, he said ”I don’t believe you have problems because you don’t even try to just go for it”, I was petrified, but I’m so glad he did that, because I stayed on! I was so nervous but oh my god, the way I felt after I did it was amazing!
Basically, I’m just saying that if you too suffer from anxiety, the only way to beat it, is to just do it! I know more than anyone that it is much easier said than done, but if you really think about it ‘whats really the worst that could happen’? Avoiding things more and more will only make things worse. I haven’t beaten my anxiety yet, but I know i’m on the way there because I’m telling myself that I know I will!
My best advice would probably be, don’t WAIT for things to challenge. Just do it, spontaeously. Don’t give yourself time to think and worry about what might happen, before you know it it’ll all be over and you will feel so good about it.
So get off the anti-deps, (gradually), pick yourself up and start thinking about the good things you’ve done, appreciate yourself and realise that you’re not the only one!
Just realised I’ve been doing this for about 20 minutes hahahaha
Amuses me every time! :’) xx